Fright fest was wasnt the best. but in the end it was good

haha. i had the strangest dream last night

Im trying so hard to stay strong, and im trying so hard to understand all of this. but its just so hard for me to know why, WHY i have to go through all of this at once. its not fair. and i know life isnt fair, but so far in my life i've felt this way. i promise from the day i turned 5 i felt like i was an outsider, and that i was alone. being the middle child, i never got the attention i wanted. i know my parents sacrafised a lot for my family.. but it was so hard for me to see that bcuz i felt so neglected.  no body ever played tag with me, no one ever walked to school with me. i made my own ramyun when i was 6. no one came to my graduation. never had a birthday party in my life.  i was   i n d e p e n d e n t.   in everything i did. i did it by my self. but now a days, i just cant seem to get my self back together. i have so many shit running through my mind, im getting stressed out from it. to the point where i feel like breaking down. but then these are the times when i need u the most. these are the times when i need to see that my prayers are being answered. the prayers ive been searching for half of my life. I know your there for me,and i know you have a reason for all of this. but why now? why everything at once? why do i always have to question you? why do i always feel so alone? and most of all, why cant i see that my prayers are being answered?

x lFiLL UP 1: WHERE R U GONNA GOO
x lFiLL UP 1: AFTER 3 yearS!!1
whoa sammys on: hm... idontknow, somewhere far.
x lFiLL UP 1: U HAVE TO WAIT FOR MEEE
whoa sammys on: :]]]]
whoa sammys on: doode what if K-UNIT became ROMMIES :]
whoa sammys on: haha that would be sooooo
whoa sammys on: weird? and cool
x lFiLL UP 1: aahahah
x lFiLL UP 1: julie would be come a succesor
x lFiLL UP 1: me and u would jsut be couch potatoes
x lFiLL UP 1: ;]
whoa sammys on: lol. yes. and julie will pay the rent :]
x lFiLL UP 1: hahaahhhaa
x lFiLL UP 1: of course :[
x lFiLL UP 1: i mean
x lFiLL UP 1: :]
whoa sammys on: haha. and sara will cook and clean.
x lFiLL UP 1: hahaahahahahaha
x lFiLL UP 1: raymond will be the security guard
x lFiLL UP 1: standing out the door
x lFiLL UP 1: L:]
x lFiLL UP 1: :]

wouldnt that be awesome? sighhhh.

Dooode

Does anyone remember this song?

this song brings back soo much memories.

haha wonder what happend to him though..

current mood:  

EDIT-

Today was Great!!

one of the best days of my entire YEAR.

So today i went to Church of course.  and then had awana.

wow.. i wonder who that was.. and what he was doing o.O

and then went to the church in LA. it was bomb.

On our way there.

haha my eyes.

haha wow.

doughnut hole

we're in pain.

haha yes we're camera whores :]

and thenn when we got to the Church.

these listerine mint tapes. But some people cant even handle one.
but Paul decided to eat..

the whole pack at ONE time.. what a DORK :]

and then after that. we went to a Mexican Place. the food was good.

hm.. pepper or Red pepper?

couldnt decide so i chose red pepper along with some mexican hot sauce.

julie chose pepper.

before

after.

julie = pig *oink*

and then OMG. We Saw PEDRO eating right NEXT TO US.

haha VOTE FOR PEDRO :]

Me : Why is that man staring at me?
Paul : Um.. who? Pedro?
Me : NO, Pedro's Dad.

PUhahhahaha. that was sooo funny.

Today was an AWESOME day.

30 Random Things about ME :

o1. I like to eat ranch dressing with Pasta and Pizza.
o2. I have a B in spanish
o3. I feel naked without my phone
o4. I sing in the shower
o5. I dont have pimples, just one or two zits
o6. I put french fries in my burgers
o7. I love going to the library to just talk with friends, which i havnt done in a long time
o8. I am a 20/20 [eyes]
o9. I have asthma and yes i DO need inhailers but i lost them
1o. I type pretty fast
11. I used to be a tomboy
12. I got voted best smile in junior high :]
13. I have an inside-out OREO tan on my lower back
14. I want 3 peircing on my left ear and 2 on my right and one on my toungue or nose or lip
15. I'm a FOB
16. I'm a messy and lazy person
17. I get itchy when there is a bug around.. its like i have spidey sense haha..
18. My favorite number is 7
19. I think JOHN BON JOVI, JONNY DEPP, and BRAD PITT are hott and sexy for over 40 year olds
2o. My room is filled with posters on the wall which i need to take down.
21. I dont know my integers
22. I can never read any Harry Potter books
23. I hate when old people drive super duper slow
24. I have a cut on my left eyelid
25. I get headaches alot from sinuses and alergies
26. I used to pour glue on my hand and peel them off when im bored.
27. I think its fun to play with Barbies
28. My favorite colors are blue and pink
29. Theres a hole in my wall
3o. I like writing on the sand.

yes i admit. I love shoes :]